Today is a day to be documented in history. According to my husband, “Who are you and what have you done with my wife?”
That’s because today, friends, I went to apply for a job. I read the end of 1 Chronicles. Then, I even decided that tomorrow is the day to put pictures in the picture frames.
To you, that probably seems like a very minor thing. But these picture frames have been empty for 7 and a half months now, ever since I moved in here. It’s getting to be sad. Pictures are one thing I depend on for sustenance. I love to be surrounded by pictures, so that when everything is going wrong, I can look around at the smiling faces all around me saying, “Hey, we love you anyway.” It’s time for me to put my life support up on the walls and embrace my new life.
You know, though, change is funny. Even though I’m making all these positive changes in my life, there are still these damn things I can’t seem to get rid of. Is it like that for everyone? For some people, it’s hair in the shower drain, nicotine stains, in-laws, etc. For me, it’s a number of annoying thoughts and habits. I feel like they creep up at the most unwanted times; for example, just when I’m feeling good about myself, I look at the mirror and realize how much weight I’ve gained. And I was just thinking that I was doing well! Sometimes I just want to look in the mirror and say, “Okay really? Can you save that thought for another time? Because I was just enjoying being AWESOME.” Argh. It never ends. Just like lint on your black pants. No matter how many times you roll, there will still be that stray piece of fuzz. I mean seriously, what’s its problem? Can’t it just leave us alone?
Even in the midst of this really good day, I still burned my dinner. And you know what we were having? A frozen pizza. Could anything possibly be easier to cook? But I still messed it up. I’m improving, but it still looks like I have a ways to go. Damn.
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